Thursday 1 December 2005

01-Dec-05 - SEXUAL ABUSE

SEXUAL ABUSE

Hospital – 1st December 2005 – Re-construction of ear - Ossiculoplasty

This was the second part of a two-part operation on my left ear. I required a reconstructon after surgery some two years ago. My first operation was a atticotomy and tympanoplasty procedure for chronic otitis media with cholesteatoma. The second operation was to correct my hearing. For the last four to five years my hearing had deteriated considerable and I had recurring ear infections.

My first operation was successful but it took a long time to recover.

On lst of December 2005 I was driven by Hamish to BUPA Murrayfield Hospital. I had originally arranged for my father to take me. I was going to drive down and leave my car at my parents and my father would drive me to the hospital. Hamish insisted that he should drive me down to the hospital – it was the least he could do.

We arrived at the hospital and taken to the private room. Whilst waiting for Hamish made several remarks of a sexual nature. I did not respond as I was more concerned with my operation and was not really relishing the idea of theatre. I have a little needle phobia. One of the nurses cames in to do the normal pre med checks – form filling – blood pressure etc. She came in and out of the room on at least four occasions. Each time Hamish enquired how long she would be and when she would be back. He suggested that I might like a quickie. I declined and ignored him. He continued to ask me and said it would make me less anxious. I continued to ignore him. He suggested that I may like to change before the Consultant visited. I said that it was 2 hours before the operation and that I wished to stay fully clothed. I went into the loo and Hamish followed closing and locking the door behind him. He suggested I might like to take my skirt off and keep my boots and and bend over. I declined. I told him that I did not wish this to happened. I did not want to make a scene. There was a knock on the room door and I quickly moved towards the door and ran to the room door and into the corridor. I looked for the Consultant and managed to find him. I explained that I was indisposed. He came back to the room and explained the procedure. Several other hospital staff came into the room and this took another hour. By this time I was due to go into theatre and Hamish departed. I was very upset at his insensitivity and lack of understanding of my circumstances. I thought his behaviour was base and I wished I had been more forceful with him.

Pitlour - Shoot Day

I think it was the second last day of our shooting season at Pitlour. I had employed Ruth Davies to look after Rosalind. The guests from the shoot had departed at about 4.30 – 5.00 pm. and I took Rosalind Ruth for a bar supper (Strath Tavern – Strathmiglo) before taking her home. At about 6.00 pm I received a text message from Hamish asking where he would find the nail scissors. I text back a message explaining where he might find them. Ruth, Rosalind and I left the Tavern at around 7.15 and I returned home (Pitlour) with Rosalind at about 8.00. Ruairidh rushed downstairs to greet me and said that Daddy needed his corn fixed would I help him. I declined and he continued to tell me that Daddy could not do it himself and that please could I help. Rosalind went to investigate and called me into Hamish’s bathroom. I declined and said that Daddy was not dressed so that I felt it was not a good idea to go in. Hamish called out to me and informed me that he was fully covered with a large towel. He asked if I would oblige. Rosalind and Ruairidh kept asking me to help. Rosalind was sitting next to Hamish with all the necessary implements to extract the corn. She said she would help. I gave in and said that I wanted him to remain covered. Rosalind stayed beside me and after half an hour Hamish suggested that she go and brush her teeth. She eventually did this and came back. Hamish then suggested she go and put her nightie on and this she did but brought it into the bathroom. He then suggested she put herself to sleep but by this time she realised that was not such a good plan and as soon as she had left the room Hamish opened up the towel and revealed his naked body. He was fully erect and suggested that I might want to do something with it, he continued to ask me and I left the room and said that I could not trust him any more and that he was just treating me like a piece of meat.